Thank God for blogging!

I really wonder what it's like to be one of my sisters they're not disabled and they don't need to deal with my mom. I didn't want to get up this morning but she got me up anyway, Stephanie will be here at 10 and once again my mom said "Stephanie needs to do your laundry". If she is so concerned about it and she calls herself my pca then she should do it, but she won't. It looks like I'll need to find two new pca's and that's one bad thing about being disabled is the pca's and they get very annoying too!

Stephanie came here at 11 and I shut and locked my door, because I really didn't want her here. I want her gone and out of my life, she is going to take cna classes. Her and Chad they are so serious and I know that they'll get married and have kids, I am glad that I do have Dawn. This morning when I was upset Dawn got me to calm down. I was telling Stephanie that I want to work at the cancer center and I do know that I will lose her because she wants a full time job, but I need a life too.

I was telling Dawn that my mom won't get the hospital bed even though it would help her and I out. But she doesn't want to get it and I really wish that she would it make both of our lives easier. Transfers are getting harder and I know that the hospital bed would make both of our lives easier. I am so thankful for Dawn when no one understands me I can go to her and this morning when I was upset and I was thinking "no one understands me" God said "call Dawn" and I did and she was able to calm me down and get me smiling again she is like my older sister. I can trust her and I love her. I was telling her that next month I am going to get the at&t iphone and she has at&t too so we can talk when ever I need her. We have the reigers syndrome and the same kind of md so it does help, we've done things in the past that we're not proud of but God forgave us so that's good. We still laugh and we can't believe that we drank and listened to all this bad music, I am hoping that she can come visit me next month. I miss being around her and I miss her allot we always take a bunch of pictures and take pictures of our dogs and of us and our dogs.

Tomorrow is going to be boring I usually go to church on Sunday's but since a hurricane is coming I can't go. But I can do my puzzle books finish up my book relax in bed. Now that I can watch tv on my computer I will watch tv too. Probably call Dawn, I am also down loading new music onto my ipod. I have a bunch of different artist on my ipod and over 300 songs. When I go places such as doctors at umass I take my ipod with me and it keeps me occupied. I also listen to my ipod when I am around the house and when I go places myself, there are allot of drug dealers in my town and if I go to the library for a while I need to take my medication with me, and I don't want to take any chances with that.