I'm excited about tonight, I get to live! I know that Stephanie, her mom and everyone is going to tease Dave and I. We are going to go talk alone and I know that when we come back everyone is going to tease us and all next week Stephanie is going to tease me. I am excited that I get to get away from here tonight and away from Jorma, he looks at me and I don't know why he does because it's pointless he just gives me these rude looks. Once I stuck my tongue out at him, I got sick of his looks. I think he needs to grow up and stop acting like a baby all the time, yesterday on the way home from barns and noble he had a huge frown on his face. He doesn't need to come, my mom can drive my van perfectly fine herself but he needs to be with her all the time. I don't know how she does it because everyone needs alone time she never gets alone time because she's always on the phone or with him and I roll my eyes when I see him go out with her.
I really hope I can be out of this stressful house soon, my mom always wants my showers done and my laundry and she's my pca too and she should do them too. If she wants them done so badly than she should do them too, but she won't she only does the easy things. I need to move out of here and start living, I can't live here all my life there is no need for me here. My mom has Jorma, her sisters and my sisters and that's who she's chosen to be in her life but when it comes to me I'm just her option. She walked away from God and once Jorma came into the picture that's when it got worse because now he follows her every where and they act like they're happy but I see it every day and they really aren't that happy. I wish that my sisters would believe me but they never will. Maiju tells me that I'm lying all the time and I know that she's going to tell the new family not to believe anything that I say because it's all lies.
I was in the kitchen telling my mom that I saw an old pastor yesterday at barns and noble and he wasn't nice to me and I asked her "shouldn't all Christian's be nice?" and Jorma said "yes they all should". I was going to say "it's time you start treating me like everyone else, you're so nice to everyone else but when it comes to me you're really not and it gets really old and I wish that you would treat me better". The pastor was from the Luthrean church.
I know tonight when the sun goes down I am going to cry because that's how my dad told me that he was done his battle with his cancer and it still hurts to this day to see the sun set but I'll Dave there. So I'll be fine, I am excited to get out of this house tonight and live and not be here with Mr. Moody and be stuck here. I really want this to work out with Dave and I, or if not I know that God will have someone else in store for me. I will post picture's in tomorrow's post from tonight. There will be allot so probably the whole next week will have pictures I'm so excited to get away from here!
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