I had a good day :)

Dale was saying that Stephanie needs allot of prayer working with me, in 2007 when my mom and Jorma went to Florida Dale left me with her friends daughter. I saw shaving cream and toilet paper, so I put shaving cream all over her van and toilet paper too, and when Dale came home from her bible study she had a huge mess and Sam put "just married". Dale and I had some awesome times together but it was her timing to go, and when I saw her at barns and noble she gave me a hug. I'm not mad at her, I knew it was her timing to go and my mom still doesn't understand that no one in my family does. But in the bible it says there are seasons that people are in our lives and it was Dale's season to go, it was so hard to let her go and I wrote her a nice letter and thanked her for all the time that she spent. I like talking to Dale and when I saw her she encouraged me to ask Jorma these questions, I miss doing the fill in puzzles with her. We would go to the park and take our puzzle books and we couldn't stop and she loved my room, I have all good quotes and bible verses all over. She said it's my walk in bible, and I give these quote and bible verse books to people and I gave one to her and she keeps it by her pray chair and she reads it. Dale and I had some awesome times together she said when she goes to heaven she's going to have a very long talk with my dad and ask him "why did you name your daughter your chocolate queen? because she always bought chocolate" and he will probably laugh.
I am glad that I had my dad, he taught me hours teaching me the truth and I'm glad that I didn't have Jorma as my dad. He is so moody and sometimes I want to give him a pad or tampon and say "this is for you since your moody" he gives me these looks and no matter how nice I am to him he's still rude to me. He closes the fridge door and he acts like a child because if he needs to get in the kitchen I need to get out of there and yesterday morning when he shook his head at me and I asked him "why did you do that?" he said "no reason" Dale told me to ask him questions like that and he will stop doing it. Such as last Monday when he went to say something to me and I asked him "what did you say?" and he said "nothing" he doesn't like when I go sit outside with my mom, and I knew on Saturday when I was going out with them I knew he didn't like it but I was here first and I'm her daughter. It makes me miss my dad and I wish that he got the colostomy and this family wouldn't be torn apart, but the devil took my dad and he took my family too. When I did relay for life in memory of my dad and I cried the whole 6 hours that I was there, but he taught me allot of good lessons and I am glad he taught me them. I am outgoing and he taught me allot, he would be proud of me and he probably is proud of me. I could have given up on God so many times but I won't and I never will. It's sad to see my mom drift away from God but oh well that's her choice and if she wants him in her life she can choose it.
I can never get alone time with my mom, I went to go read outside and of course Jorma had to come out there. I wish for once I could spend an hour with her but I can't and I really hate it. It would be nice if once I could spend an hour with her but I can't and it gets annoying, that's why I need to move out. I was reading my book and I was hoping to spend some time with her but I'll never be able too and it gets annoying and it makes me sad too, because all I want is an hour by he needs her every single second and it makes me sad all I want is an hour such as on Saturday I was hoping to go to target with her but he needed to come with us and it gets annoying and frustrating. That's why I need to leave and I want to go some where else where I am more needed and wanted. My mom has all the people who she wants in her life and when it comes to me she doesn't want to spend time with me and I really wish that she would but oh well that's her choice I know where I am needed and wanted and I'm not needed in this family all 3 of my sisters they have someone and when it comes to me I don't have much of a life, I just sit around here I have Stephanie from 9-5 then after that my mom but she does nothing with me she always needs Jorma. Jorma can't be left alone he always needs his mommy and I'm burnt out by the both of them.
I hope that I soon find a born again Christian boyfriend,Chris was into sex and drinking. He was nice  at first and that's what I miss. I could go back to Bryan but he's a liar, he always said "I got accepted to Fitchburg state" but he never did. I want a good boyfriend there are a couple single guys at Horizon and one of them is Janet's brother so I asked him to be a friend on facebook. I want someone who will love God and someone who will see past my wheelchair and disabilities someone close to me. I want guys who live close to me who I can see more often and not liars and who will love me for me. Tonight Dawn and I are going to talk and before we use to talk every night and we haven't talked in real long time so I am excited to talk to her I miss her, but my mom doesn't want Stephanie to waste the gas and go all the way down to Rhode Island. So I will see if she wants to come here the last weekend of this month and I will get a bunch of church girls and we'll have allot of fun too. Stephanie was looking at Dawn's facebook page and she saw when we went out and did bad things, we are triple trouble when we are together. I'm trouble and she's double so when we are together it equals triple trouble.