I love Lacy she's so cute, she helped me so much. She got me off my anti depressants and she got me to accept my colostomy when humans couldn't. She always needs to watch my mom and Stephanie get me in bed and out of bed. It's amazing how smart she is, she knows the words cookie, walk, ride, Mary. At nights she always needs a cookie and she gets so happy, I am going to get a cute picture of her and I and then get a really nice card and send it to Mary. When I come home from some where she goes nuts and she makes me feel loved. In the mornings when Stephanie gets me out of bed she needs to watch her then she spreads all her toys and she reminds me of a little kid how they spread their toys.
I've been gluing my quotes and bible verses on cool paper, I write them on neon, pastel, computer, and all different kinds of paper. Then I glue them and it takes me 2 hours to find the right quotes and bible verses. I listen to music and my hands get tired but it's good for my hands. I read my bible when I do my bible verses and if Al (he use to be my stand in dad) would realize it's easier for me to do it that way but he won't but oh well. Dale told me my room is a walk in bible and it is, I have the quotes on my doors, my dressers, walls, closet. It's not easy to do, last night I glued 26 quotes on paper and my hand still hurts. I like doing the quotes and bible verses at nights I start at 5 and I'm always done at 7 it makes my nights go by faster. I like to find different ones that reflect my life and it really helps me because when I think that I can't do anything all I need to look at is my room and I have cut the paper, written all of them. It takes me two hours, but like I said it makes my nights go by faster and it takes my mind off things as well :)
Stephanie came today and she wasn't feeling good so I let her leave early and she dropped me off at barns and noble. My mom and Jorma they were doing something in the kitchen and my mom goes to ask Stephanie "can you bring her home?" it wasn't fair for Stephanie because she's not feeling good and my mom said that the reason why she couldn't come pick me up was because she was going to be busy working in the kitchen. I called my dds worker and I am hoping that she can get me more pca hours since my mom only wants the easy jobs and she won't empty my trash now either. She wants Stephanie to do all of it and it frustrates Stephanie and I, my mom is always concerned about my showers, laundry and when my sheets are changed and when I don't have a pca here she really doesn't offer me anything to eat and it's sad how she's changed. She doesn't want to sit in my room because she says that she'll fall asleep, she doesn't like to take me out either and it gets very stressful living here and I told Stephanie that I can't do it anymore, my mom gives her time to my sisters, Jorma and she's always watching TV.
I hope on my new chair that Chris the wheelchair guy can make a better thing where my feet are, my right one is always hanging and it pulls at my hip. I will be going to church and I hit a bump and my foot fly's off the foot plate and it hurts allot. I want to pick the chair and not have him pick it for me. I want and need an board charger that means I can carry a plug with me in my purse and I wouldn't need to bring the big charger with me every where. I like going to barns and noble and they have different stores and I like to look around but I can't trust my battery, last week when I went on the date with Matt on the way home my chair was about to die and I am so happy that I brought my charger I wouldn't have made it home and it gets annoying always having to carry a big charger with me. I go see a special doctor for that, I am going to ask her to give me botox too, as I've said before that at MHS I over worked my tendons I played all these sports but by doing that I hurt my back and I really wish that I would have listened to them because now I am paying the price for it. But God told me "every action has a reaction". I guess this is his way of teaching me to obey him, my mom bought me a FinnHook from the Finnish fair it's a wood hook and where ever the tendon is inflamed all I do is put the hook where the tendon is in flamed and push against it. It's not a comfortable feeling but it does help. The botox would help it too, even though it's not a comfortable thing to go through but it helps so I guess that's all that counts.
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