Wednesday, May 16, 2012


My nurse was so rude towards me yesterday, I didn't like her attitude at all. She was repotioning me and I went into a spasm ane wouldn't not let go of my leg.
One thing that came out if this  hospital stay, I got my own room, last week I wasn't able to sit in my room but now I am. The nurses always com at 12  then if one of my room mates called for a nurse that again. I bet that tonight I'll be able to sleep allot. They shut my door at night last night I had so many tests done that every time that I fell asleep the nurses would come in and take me to an appointment in the middle of the night.
I had these nursing students with me tonight and they were really nice to me, but after their shift was done I got the rude cna and she has no patience with me what so ever and it gets so frustrating. Last night she came in my room so many times and my room mate said to her "she just fell asleep" the nursing students had allot more compassion for me than the other one. Tomorrow I am hoping that my neurologist will come by so she can figure out my spasms she has helped me in the past.
Tomorrow I am hoping that my social worker will come by, like I said in yesterday's post I don't want to go back home because my mom will ignore me. I don't mind going to visit her but sleeping there every night that's not easy. I do love her but she spends no time with me, she gets paid but she doesn't do anything with me because of Jorma he wants her time all to himself he doesn't mind sharing her with my sisters but when it comes to me he wants all of her time and it gets pretty frustrating living there.
Let Me Shine on you
David Crowder Band
This place is trying to break my belief 
But my faith is bigger than all I can see 
And what I need is redemption 
And what I need is for You for to put me back on my feet 

I swear I'm trying to give everything 
But I feel I'm falling, make me believe 
What I need is resurrection 
What I need is for You to put me back on my feet 

If I could feel You shine Your perpetual light 
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight 
If I could feel You feel You shine 
Oh let me feel You shine 
So beautiful and warm 
So beautiful and bright 
Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky 
Let me feel You shine Oh
Let me feel You shine

I lift the knife to the thing I love most 
Praying You'll come so I can have both 
What I need is You to touch me 
What I need is for You to be the thing that I need 

If I could feel You shine your perpetual light 
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight 
If I could feel You feel You shine 
Oh let me feel You shine 
So beautiful and warm 
So beautiful and bright 
Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky 
Oh let me feel You shine 

God I need a Savior 
O come generous King 
O God I need a Savior 
To come rescue me 

Oh let me feel You shine Your magnificent light 
Then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight 
If You let me feel You feel You shine 
Oh let me feel You shine 
So beautiful and warm 
So beautiful and bright 
Like a sun comin' out of a rainy sky 
Oh let me feel You shine 

Let me feel You shine
Let me feel You shine 

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