I had to get up at 7am, I was so tired. Stephanie got me in bed at 10:45 then I finished blogging. My mom came down around 11:30 and she turned me. I was so tired so was Stephanie, we got to umass at 8:45 and the girl who was doing my eeg she was a born again Christian and we got talking about God and what he's done in my life. Last night when Stephanie was here she was in my room doing her own thing and I liked it I wasn't alone in my room like I am when my mom is here. Imagine sitting in your room all alone every night doing the same thing every night, and your mom is more willing to do things with your sisters or Jorma. I'm just sick of being her only option when everyone else is her proity and it was nice to have Stephanie just sit in here she didn't need to be right next me but just to just be in here it was a nice company. I wish my mom would sit in here but she never will, so it's my time to move on and get the heck out of here and leave my mom and Jorma alone.
Jorma reminds me of a child, because if I am in the kitchen he won't come in there. I see him waiting in the dinning room and he is 60 years old but he acts like a child and I wish that he would grow up but sadly he never will. My mom told me that he had a appointment at umass today and he's such a baby that he needs my mom all the time. If I could drive I would go places myself but I can't drive, it just makes me laugh how he is grown up but always needs a mommy to go with him. I want to say "grow up, you don't always need my mom.". My mom is there for my sisters, Jorma, but when I needed her at umass a month ago she didn't come and it gets very annoying because she'll stop and do everything for them but when it comes to me she won't and I wish that she would. I need to move out and forget about them two, I wish my mom would sit in my room but she won't and she never will because she's so busy with everyone else. Jorma gives me these looks like he hates me or something and he really reminds me of a kid.
I cannot wait to sleep at Dawn's that will be trouble in one town and one apartment complex, Stephanie will be with me all weekend. I am sure on Friday night we probably will stay up and take some funny pictures. Justin is on Dawn's facebook, I met Justin at camp and he is creepy. When I go on his face book page I can feel the enemy on his page. Stephanie gets the chills when she see's a sticker if someone is in a cult. Jorma will love that weekend because I won't be here, he acts like a 12 year old when he is a 60 year old. It's time for him to grow up and stop depending on my mom. But I am excited to get out of Mass for the weekend and get out of my house too, I spend way to much here. Tomorrow if Stephanie isn't feeling good I will go to the library. I am also going to call the group home place to see if I can volunteer there to help out Alycia so that she doesn't depend on others but to help herself. I will bring my water bottles and bring the drink packets and show her how easy it is to do things by herself and not to depend on everyone else but to do things for yourself and learn how to do things.
Next month will be 3 years that I've been born again and it's been the best thing that has ever happen to me. When I wasn't a born again Christian I use to swear so much and listen to all this bad music and on my phone it's now all worship and all good music and I listen to a Christian radio station. I will never give up on God and my dad would be proud of me that I never gave up on God and I never will, because without God in my life it's dull. But with God I am happier, I am still waiting for the born again Christian, I was talking to a friend from MHS and he doesn't go to church and I only want guys who fully love God. I don't want to end up like Suvi or my mom, I don't know if Suvi's really happy or did she just want to get married because my sisters are married that part I will never know and she'll probably never tell me either. We've gotten more distance since she got married. Last year when Siira told me that she was getting married I knew I was getting used to I fired Suvi I wouldn't have done that to her. Suvi's busy with Brad and her sister in law Kelly. But getting back to being born again I don't swear allot any more all my music is better and my whole life is better now that I fully gave my heart to Jesus.
Jorma reminds me of a child, because if I am in the kitchen he won't come in there. I see him waiting in the dinning room and he is 60 years old but he acts like a child and I wish that he would grow up but sadly he never will. My mom told me that he had a appointment at umass today and he's such a baby that he needs my mom all the time. If I could drive I would go places myself but I can't drive, it just makes me laugh how he is grown up but always needs a mommy to go with him. I want to say "grow up, you don't always need my mom.". My mom is there for my sisters, Jorma, but when I needed her at umass a month ago she didn't come and it gets very annoying because she'll stop and do everything for them but when it comes to me she won't and I wish that she would. I need to move out and forget about them two, I wish my mom would sit in my room but she won't and she never will because she's so busy with everyone else. Jorma gives me these looks like he hates me or something and he really reminds me of a kid.
I cannot wait to sleep at Dawn's that will be trouble in one town and one apartment complex, Stephanie will be with me all weekend. I am sure on Friday night we probably will stay up and take some funny pictures. Justin is on Dawn's facebook, I met Justin at camp and he is creepy. When I go on his face book page I can feel the enemy on his page. Stephanie gets the chills when she see's a sticker if someone is in a cult. Jorma will love that weekend because I won't be here, he acts like a 12 year old when he is a 60 year old. It's time for him to grow up and stop depending on my mom. But I am excited to get out of Mass for the weekend and get out of my house too, I spend way to much here. Tomorrow if Stephanie isn't feeling good I will go to the library. I am also going to call the group home place to see if I can volunteer there to help out Alycia so that she doesn't depend on others but to help herself. I will bring my water bottles and bring the drink packets and show her how easy it is to do things by herself and not to depend on everyone else but to do things for yourself and learn how to do things.
Next month will be 3 years that I've been born again and it's been the best thing that has ever happen to me. When I wasn't a born again Christian I use to swear so much and listen to all this bad music and on my phone it's now all worship and all good music and I listen to a Christian radio station. I will never give up on God and my dad would be proud of me that I never gave up on God and I never will, because without God in my life it's dull. But with God I am happier, I am still waiting for the born again Christian, I was talking to a friend from MHS and he doesn't go to church and I only want guys who fully love God. I don't want to end up like Suvi or my mom, I don't know if Suvi's really happy or did she just want to get married because my sisters are married that part I will never know and she'll probably never tell me either. We've gotten more distance since she got married. Last year when Siira told me that she was getting married I knew I was getting used to I fired Suvi I wouldn't have done that to her. Suvi's busy with Brad and her sister in law Kelly. But getting back to being born again I don't swear allot any more all my music is better and my whole life is better now that I fully gave my heart to Jesus.
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